It Took A Couple Of Tries Before I Learned What Made My Heart Sing

My first job was working in the mall in food service, behind the counter. The place has a lot of gays working in the food court. I became friends with Alonzo and he introduced me to his gay friends. I got along well with Alonzo and when he changed jobs he took me with him.

After working in the food court Alonzo got a job working nights for an anchor store, putting out merchandize, unboxing, and straightening out the displayed apparel. He got me on, it paid better, but it was nights. At night we hid in the warehouse and he wanted blowjobs. We were caught on camera and fired.

I decided that I would go to college. I met a girl and we became friends. She was an Army brat and quite assertive. She said that she had wanted to go Army but an injury when she was a child kept her from joining. She liked to have sex, she said she had been having sex since she was in puberty. She was always 'in command' and I was the 'girl next door' for her.

She was open and unapologetic about being lesbian. I suspected that the reason she wasn't taken in the Army was because of her orientation. Or rather, her insistence of letting everyone around her know that she was. I spent my years at college as the girlfriend, I played the role of being the girl next door, and she was my 'commander'.

When I got out of college I wanted something different and I went to work for my aunt in her bed and breakfast. It wasn't a college job, but it allowed me to put some distance between me and 'the commander'. I had pretty much outgrown that behavior and when I met Dustin I was all over him. After a year we got married.

After I had my child I got into another lesbian sexual affair with a nurse in training. Like 'the commander' she was assertive and liked me being the girlfriend. It was now old school for me and I played the role out for her. I figured out all on my own that I liked bossy women. Part of my problem with Dustin is that he isn't bossy, more of a conciliator, always tying to find ways to make everyone happy.

After a while, of not having sex with Dustin, he suggested we separate. We got divorced later.

I'm unapologetically lesbian. I know that now and I prefer a 'commander' type as opposed to a 'loving wife' type. Someone has to be the boss, and that's what I'm attracted to. Kissing their feet, doing the laundry, changing the baby. If I wasn't lesbian I would have made a good wife for some Alpha male.

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