Am I Normal Or Abnormal, Alone Or Have Company Of Other Women Like Me

I wonder if other women feel like me. Putting up with a man wanting sex from you. It's messy, invasive, dominating, etc. I never feel the burn, I want him to finish and get off me. I don't like him invading my privacy. I won't pee in front of him, I don't like being watched in the shower, I don't like bring caught half dressed.

I do my part, I do all of the cooking, he helps with errands but won't do dishes. He earns most of the money. I wear my 'rings' so he doesn't blow a fuse, I feel I have a sign around my neck 'private property'. I had my tubes tied after an abortion because I am not mother material.

I can't explain why I got married, because he insisted and I worked with him. After getting married I had to give up my job since company policy didn't allow both of us working together. Since I got married I haven't worked full time. I am well aware that I'm a dependent, but I can't get up the energy to look for a job.

I've only been intimate with him, so I have no real idea. I've taken those tests on the internet that always come out gay or bisexual. I do prefer a woman's look than a male. I stopped going to the gym because this woman kept hitting on me and insinuating. I was put off because she's into body building and I find that repulsive. My idea of female is a friendly, pretty, all American girl, apple pie, and curls. That's the look I strive for. That's what my husband saw, but I can't get the desire to be close to him when he's in that mood.