Met A Guy From Online In Person For A Date

I had met Brian online after a pretty bad breakup. I'd been in a relationship with a guy I thought I'd marry and I was so upset when he broke up with me. I was frustrated snd angry and had agreeed to go out with the first guy who asked even though I didn't know him. We met in person at a bar and he bought me a few drinks, he wasn't really my type but I was so confused about losing my ex I just agreed when he asked if I wanted to go back to his apartment. He told me he had roommates and when we arrived there were four guys playing video games. I remember sitting with Brian and him fixing me another drink and then encouraging me to take a few shots. I am petite and didn't usually drink like that and I got really wasted. Brian got me to take another shot and he asked if I was ok and put his arms around me and pulling me closer. He was talking in my ear telling me I was getting him excited and how glad he was we met. His hands were moving to my chest and he started grabbing my small breast through my top right there in front of all his friends. He started to squeeze and was telling me he didn't usually go for petite but that I was turning him on. I'd never ever been touched like that in front of anyone and it felt so offensive and personal but I just froze up and could see the other guys watching. He starts kissing my neck and I got so nervous and wasn't sure about any of it but he was using both hands and before I could react his hands were under my shirt and directly on my small bra. I felt my heart racing and it felt so dirty and wrong and was nothing I'd ever done but he was telling me I was ok and to just relax and was trying to pull my top up and off of me. It just happened so fast and I was so nervous and scared but I just froze up. My shirt came off and Brian started to reach behind me to unfasten my bra and one of his friends got up and walked over to us. I could feel my face burning when he took my bra off, I am barely a B cup and wasn't confident or used to being exposed like that at all. My nipples are tiny and pink but so so sensitive and he had his mouth on one, sucking it then biting it. It felt so dirty and wrong and just sinful but I didn't stop him or say anything. Brian had his hand on my thigh then up under my skirt, rubbing the front of my panties. He reached under my panties and started to touch my clit and I grabbed his hand. He was asking if I was a little tease and that I shouldn't be like that. He asked if I needed him to kiss me, did I want him to lie to me and say I was beautiful and special. He started to finger me and I let him, he was telling me I knew what I was and why I was there. That I wasn't even that pretty and should be happy they even wanted me. He started to finger me and was telling me how wet I was, asking if I wanted him to stop or was I ok. I've never felt as dirty as when I said ok and arched my hips up to let him remove my panties in front of his friends. It didn't even seem like it was me but Brian was pulling his jeans down and getting in the floor in front of me. He put my legs up over his shoulders and I stared down watching him rub his dick against me then push it inside my vagina. I was so scared and just so confused, I'd only been with boys who I'd dated and never ever done anything sexual with people watching but I was on some dirty couch with my legs open and some guy I'd just met fucking me in front of his friends. Guys I'd dated had treated me like I was delicate and fragile and like some princess but this was so different. He was starting to just pound me and I could hear him saying things, insulting me so everyone could hear him. Nobody had ever done anything but flatter or compliment me so when I heard him call me a whore it was so erotic. Brian was moving his hips and fucking me, starting to move faster and was cursing at me. I remember one of his friends walking over to me and put his cock in my face like it was expected or normal or I don't know. He was telling me to just do it, to open my mouth and I don't know why but I did. I'd seen it in porn but never imagined I'd be doing it, getting fucked by one guy and have another in my mouth like some bitch in heat. It's so personal but I started sucking him like he was my ex, getting into it while that strange cock was up inside me with my legs up. I could hear him groan right before he started to cum, shocking me that he was doing it deep inside me. I couldn't even catch my breath before the guy I'd been sucking pushed me on my back and got on top of me, I was getting fucked by a second guy with Brian's cum still leaking out. It's embarrassing but I started to orgasm with the second guy and was calling out when he was calling me filthy names. They ended up taking turns with me and getting so rough and nasty. It wasn't romantic or anything like I ever experienced, it had some consequences after but it was the dirtiest thing I've ever gotten into before