When Your Blessings Have A Dark Side

I was blessed with a petite body, and well formed. Although my body is small and my tits are small my vagina can take it when it's time to fuck. I'm 22 and finishing college this semester and onto the bigger world. I have never had a problem getting a man to want to fuck me.

Now the other side of the coin. As I said I'm petite, five O. I have a small bust and small hips and I can pass for a teenage boy. I cut my hair in high school and dressed as a boy and passed pretty well, enough that I dated a girl to the prom. Whether it's natural or came on while posing as a boy I don't know, but the best sex of my life was 'fucking' that girl after prom. I rubbed my clit so hard against her I went into a wild ass orgasm and she laughed her head off before grabbing onto me and rubbing one out against my hip bone. She wasn't at all put off with me passing myself off as a boy and fucking with her as girl.

This is my problem. I have these moments of sheer lust, when I want to kiss a girl, I want to grab her tits and rub my face in them, I want her spread eagled and totally smooth for me to go down on her and get her to cum. I WANT A FUCKING GIRL, I DON'T WANT A MAN. I fucking hate getting fucked. I HATE IT. Fucking men are all in it for themselves. With a girl we make each other happy, one at a time. I can sit and watch a girl cook and get horny. I can sit and watch a girl blow her hair and get horny. I can tell a girl I love her and get horny. I can never do that with a man.

I don't want to spend my life as a lesbian. I don't want to be a lesbian or gay. I just want to be normal, have a normal life, have a home with hubby coming home for dinner and two little urchins running to him. I want that, I just can't take a man fucking me right now. I'm not a blow up doll, or a sex object for them. Men don't take me seriously, they treat me like a little girl, seriously. Can you open that jar? Here let a man do it for you.

I know I will always need a girl in my life, I need to feel warm in her arms with her boobs all around me, I need her soft kisses on my lips and how she eats me and getting me to cum. I want to eat pussy and make her cum. But none of that gets me a home and a husband and two urchins in the house. I will just have to take it, even if I don't want it, to get a man to marry me and make me his wife. That's what is wrong about having a vagina and small tits and cute little ass.

I will never be considered grown up by a man.