Second Time

As I was saying my second time going astray ( being a married what I thought heterosexual male) As I said I thought the gentleman had come to complain about me ripping his wet package as I put it through his letterbox, but no he came to apologise. & hope I was not offended. I told him no are we not all red blooded males like a little porn every now and then. He just smiled and said thank you for understanding.
That was how we started chatting nearly each morning. He asked me if I was married, I told him yes. He asked if I watched porn, I told him not so much being married, he told me he was a widower. He asked if I wanted to lend any, I said sure & he came back with two unmarked DVDs .
I took them home and watched them, 2 hetro porn DVDs.
I gave them him back a 2 days later , he gave me three more, again unmarked.
One hetro, one bi well two guys fucking a woman & one trans. Again 2 days later I gave them back. He asked me if I’d watched them all. For some reason I told him yes, all of them he said again I said yes. He smiled and asked me to wait and gave me two more. This time one was hetro, one was trans but it changed to bi porn but this time the guys had sex together too. ( yes I watched them all) When I handed them back again he asked me if I’d watched them all . Again for some reason ( I think because I was curious) I said yes.He asked if I took myself in hand so to speak, embarrassed a little I said yes. He then surprised me by saying maybe I should do that he would not want my wife to catch me taking myself in hand. He said maybe after your round you should drop by and watch them at his. And after a week or so feeling horny that’s what I did.
To start we ended up wanking together to hetro porn. But that changed one day when he put in some bi porn that actually ended up with only the two guys together. I actually stopped wanking , but my curious side still kept my cock hard and twitching. The next thing I knew he was wanking my cock & placed my hand on his cock. We wanked each other until we came & he surprised me by kissing my neck. This went on for a little time nothing different. But at home I started trying my own cum, incase we tried oral.
Things progressed a little and we both ended up wanking each other totally naked . He asked me to stand while he wanked me and caressed my ass every now and then I could feel his erection brush against my ass. He also began to wank me & finger my asshole, the first time he put his finger in me I spunked..
I then bought a vibrator to use on myself incase he wanted to fuck me . I had very sexual thoughts about his penis pressing at my asshole, opening it up as he pushed into me. But it did not happen, he moved away because his daughter was made disabled after a car accident.
So for 5 years I have been wanking to gay porn, and buggering myself with a vibrator which actually turns me on(I get hard) I am now wondering if I should actually try gay sex because I’ve only ever had sex with my wife.