Wallflower Girl Taking The Plunge Into Motherhood

Facing my inner fears. I had not lost my virginity, and my long term male friend was doing me the favor. He said it was okay to keep the lights off. Thirty seven is old for loosing your virginity.

We agreed on my apartment, lights off, naked under the covers waiting. He approached the bed at full erection. He wanted a preliminary blowjob, I declined. He got accommodated on me, stuck it all the way in me, ejaculated which was part of the agreement. I agreed to risk it.

I am expecting, for early summer. I agreed, no child support needed. But honestly I want him involved and to get the best quality education I will need his money. And being honest I can't see him the same way. It's not that I want to cook for him, I know it was a favor, but I want him to be involved fully.