My Secret Cravings

I am a mature straight married man. Very straight acting around my friends and family. No one has a clue if my desires and after many years I seem to want to experience this again.
As a young boy all thru my school years I had friends that I had sex with. A lot is sucking cock but I liked getting fucked too so I let them fuck me a lot back then.
So I know whatever’s like to have sex with another male.
Now I am
Older and not getting much sexy at home I am in search f a man much like myself to
Be friends with in public but in private he and I be very sexual. By that I’m mean we enjoy a lot of nudity and touching each other freely mutual jacking off mutual sucking cock and I would really enjoy getting fucked again after all these years. I do keep a bag of sec toys at my cabin because there are times when I am there alone and get the craving to play with myself.
When I am in the mood nothing feels as good as taking a nice rubber cock up my ass and I love to fuck myself. I would love to have a friend that could enjoy using toys on me and using his cock on me also.
I see myself naked outdoors on my knees with a naked man standing in front of me as I duck his cock and gag myself on it many times with my big hands on his bare naked ass and him getting off with his big hard cock in my mouth and try to get a man’s cock in my throat and feels his nuts pressed to my chin something about that excited me because I still remember sucking my young friends back in the day and our cocks we’re not long enough to gag us so their nuts really felt good pressed to my chin.
Personally I am
Not into licking a man’s asshole but I have had mine licked and rimmed and it feels great If I could get comfortable with a nice clean cut man I don’t think there would be much I would not want to try.
I just want friendship and discrete sex with a man I can run around with and be with in front of my friends and no one suspect a thing then in private he and I have some really good hot sex with each other.
I like to think about me and another man in my cabin naked at the bar having a few cold beers stroking and sucking on each other both of us naked pleasing one another for hours. I know I could enjoy letting you watch me play with my toys because I like doing that so much it would be even better if you were watching me and then want to join in and use them on me maybe as I am sucking your cock.
A few of my toys have a suction cup base so it would be easy to stick one to something and back up on it and fuck myself while you kneel in front of me so I can suck your cock.
I am only 2.5 hours from. San Antonio and maybe 2 hours from the RGV Looking for a hunting buddy for great man to man sex also. If you should respond after we talk a bit we can exchange phone numbers if you like