More Than Girlfriend She's My Everything

It was a night like tonight, bitter cold, when my roommate crawled in bed with me. She brought her own pillow, but in order to share the blanket we had to spoon all night. I suppose because it was my bed I spooned her. The next morning, still bitter cold, snowing, and windy, we stayed in bed until late in the morning.

It became an every night thing, sometimes pillow talk till midnight. We did bring her blanket. Well, we are several years out of college, we continue to share a bed together. It feels like cheating even to think about dating. Sometimes I ask myself, if she wasn't with me, would I be married and pregnant?

I have fantasized about finding a boyfriend who wouldn't mind if I have a girlfriend. But, if I did find such a boyfriend I would hurt her deeply. So on bitter cold nights, I put my arms around her, throw the blankets over my shoulder, and hug her to me. She fits perfectly, and when she's cuddled with me, we sleep all night. And in my dreams I love her, and let my hands caress her, I kiss her deeply. My dreams are so real, I dream she's dreaming with me.