I've had an obsession with pee as long as I can remember. When I was a kid I used to pee into my moms' maxi pads. I would put on old pairs of underwear and sit on the toilet and pee through them. I peed in the shower. I used to hold a toilet paper role to my pussy and try to pee like I guy. I peed in the cat's litter box!
As I got older the phase died out, but picked up again when I reached puberty.
I am now 19 and I still have a thing for pee. It turns me on to read desperation stories, and sometimes the only way I can get off is by masturbating to them.
I have tried to get more into peeing myself, but havent been able to. I get horny and have to pee so bad. I usually sit at the computer in old jeans with towels under me. Once I can actually convince my bladder to go (it takes a while, my body was trained to pee on a toilet, and it remembers that!) I am immediatley grossed out. I put everything in the washing machine and I take a long shower. I hate the smell of pee too, that scent that is kind of like corn?
I know I am turned on by pee and I want to try things with other people, but it always ends up grossing me out.
I am in a commited relationship right now anyways, and my partner is completely discusted by the idea of pee.
But I want to leave my options open. I just dont know how to get over my hesitation.