Lost My Virginity To Kinky Sex

I (19f) lost my virginity last week to a 30 year old man and now i'm scared i'll never like vanilla sex again. We met up at his apartment and the sex was roughhh, i got tied and spanked and so many things were done to me that i did not know was possible lol. i got so exhausted i asked him to stop but he kept going. in fact me asking to stop just turned him on more. he was verbal and degraded me while he was deep inside, he said such sexist things and i feel so bad for liking it. even now i'm getting turned on thinking about how he talked to me. At one point he had to take a work call and made me suck his dick under the desk. He wants to keep seeing me but idk if i should, i'm scared i'll turn into some kinky nympho.. any advice?