She Doesn’t Know

I’ve often fantasized about my wife fucking someone else or walking in on her while she’s getting herself off. After a few years of wishing and trying to hint at the subject during pillow talk, but being told I’m sick go to sleep I kind of gave up. Our sex life has gone to completely nonexistent. So out of spite, I set up a hidden camera to catch anything that might give me something good to watch while jerking off. After several years I have a nice collection of videos of her masturbating, using toys, electric toothbrush, even using the shower head. Seeing her cum is such a huge turn on for me, I also want to watch her being used by someone that can satisfy her completely preferable a BBC. I wished many time that she would just cheat on me in our martial bed just so that I could have gotten it on tape to watch. It has never happened she’s been faithful and now some years later I have taken down the camera, stopped recording, and have given up on ever seeing my fantasy become reality. I truly want to see her happy and fulfilled, sorry I can not provider her with that, sorry I spied on her, but not sorry I still have those videos, still watch them occasionally and still masturbate to them. And yes 24 + years later I’m still in a sexless marriage. It sucks!!