More Than Cock, To My Surprise

My first experience with cock was in my 20s when I gave in to a long time desire to suck cock and spread my legs for a man, particularly an older man. My gay sex experiences were always about a desire for cock and to please cock. There was no other desire or attraction than that. I happily pleased cock like that for 3 decades.

Recently I was with a man I had not been with before. He was older, in his early 60s, but also extremely fit. As I started my usual routine of sucking cock and then bottoming, I began to have desires and feelings I never had before. It wasn’t romance, but it was a very deeply repressed feminine feeling that I allowed to surface. For the first time I was enjoying a man physically and sexually almost as a woman. Being taken, submitting to his needs and urges….and his dominance.

I ran my hands all over his strong arm muscles and squeezed his hard pecs. I kissed his strong inner thigh muscles and his hard muscled ass as I moved to suck and rim him. I am slim and not overly athletic, so the contrast with this hard, strong, masculine lover was sharp and exciting. I was not just enjoying his cock (and god I was enjoying it) but I got lost in his strength, power, control, and need. He was forcefully taking me and I was enjoying being taken…feeling his strength as he thrust into me for as long and hard as he wanted. I felt like I was a feminine sexual being that was getting deliriously, wonderfully, joyfully fucked by this model of masculinity. I was clawing at his back and ass as he pumped furiously. When I was not doing that, I held my legs back and wide to ensure he would reach maximum depth with each pounding thrust.

When he finally came in my ass (which in that moment I believed was my pussy) after my incessant begging for his cum, I was in pure heaven feeling all of this man’s strength in his cock as he thrust deep into me and seeded my pussy with his manly sperm. His masculine grunting groan as he released and his cum pumped and flowed into me was music to my ears.

We made love on a couple other occasions then drifted apart. I seek out this type of lover now, but rarely find them. I enjoy all aspects of my bisexuality and all sex, but this feminine submission to a strong dominant man was an unexpected and wonderful experience.