True Nature

I was once married and after my divorce dated lots of desirable women. However throughout my life I have struggled with gay desires never fully accepting my true nature until retirement.

While I enjoyed women' s company and even fell in love with them something was always missing. Got tired of the games and how many women use men. Sexually I could perform with women while gay fantasies danced in my head. In bed with a man performing was never an issue as I was turned on right away. I was uncomfortable being in a relationship with a man preferring sex behind the scenes. I had affairs and anonymous sex with men. Nowadays I like to meet a man discreetly for mutual cocksucking and kissing though I am very happy just to perform oral. Prefer men over 60. Not into dating men or sleepovers. Just want the sex then leave to go home. This is why anonymous gay sex is easier for me. My mode of choice is adult video booths. Looks don't matter much but cleanliness does matter and normal behaviors preferred. No overly aggressive men, real kinky guys or slobs or men that are high. Sadly since Covid there are far fewer of these type of places to meet men for sex and fewer men now in these places. Luckily the gay urges are less intense as well and I only need to visit a place like that 2-3x a month. Wonder if there are any other guys like me who share this preference.