WMM, Losing For Ebony Experience

White married guy, older, have always found ebony women so erotic. I love the curvy body, natural big tits, and ass. I fantasize of an Ebony experience often and watch Ebony porn. Mostly ebony milfs masturbating or blowing white guys.
Closer experience was a lap dance r in a club by a gorgeous biracial dancer. I came in my pants.
Anyone else feel this way about white guys and ebony women?