Straight Female / 30
Coming To Terms With Who I Am And I Want To Be Pregnant And Married
Having grow up with a lesbian mom I was inducted into the culture before I knew exactly what a lesbian was. I went to college at one of my relatives school in the North East where it was the era of going lesbian. I tried, had a couple of girlfriends, fell in love and had fun between the sheets. But it wasn't until I was out of college that I met a woman I wanted to be with. She had standards, and no sex before marriage, and I went along and we got married.
I'm 30 now, and pregnant. I'm 12 weeks. The father is a coworker who has had the hots for me since I first met him. He took me around his house and offered me the kitchen and the laundry if I married him. We've had two serious discussions since I realized I was pregnant. The first dealt with life roles, he's the MAN and I'm NOT. So that means I must be the woman who holds his hand and acknowledges him. Truthfully that does not bother me, in fact I love being 'the woman' in the relationship (my current lesbian wife is in the dark so far). The other conversation dealt with long term living and lifestyle. Basically have a bunch of kids and stay home. At first it was six, but now he accepts four.
I don't feel lesbian now. If I am in the middle between a bed with my wife and one with my baby daddy, I'm walking to him, not her. Sleeping with her is no longer on my radar and we haven't been intimate in ages. I am sure now that I was never lesbian. I falsely repeated the dogma of no children, but I'm very happy to have a baby inside me.
My mother will be disappointed and so will my step mother. They tried hard to orient me in the right direction. My wife will not be happy either, I am the main bread winner and she has an art associates degree. She doesn't have children so there is no child support involved.
I have talked with baby daddy about all the 'complications'. He's willing to wait, but not wait too long, he wants me bound and tied down before the baby comes. I looked into a divorce, and it should be around 90 days since I expect it to not be contested.
That's it in a nutshell. I will be walking the straight and narrow from now on.
I'm 30 now, and pregnant. I'm 12 weeks. The father is a coworker who has had the hots for me since I first met him. He took me around his house and offered me the kitchen and the laundry if I married him. We've had two serious discussions since I realized I was pregnant. The first dealt with life roles, he's the MAN and I'm NOT. So that means I must be the woman who holds his hand and acknowledges him. Truthfully that does not bother me, in fact I love being 'the woman' in the relationship (my current lesbian wife is in the dark so far). The other conversation dealt with long term living and lifestyle. Basically have a bunch of kids and stay home. At first it was six, but now he accepts four.
I don't feel lesbian now. If I am in the middle between a bed with my wife and one with my baby daddy, I'm walking to him, not her. Sleeping with her is no longer on my radar and we haven't been intimate in ages. I am sure now that I was never lesbian. I falsely repeated the dogma of no children, but I'm very happy to have a baby inside me.
My mother will be disappointed and so will my step mother. They tried hard to orient me in the right direction. My wife will not be happy either, I am the main bread winner and she has an art associates degree. She doesn't have children so there is no child support involved.
I have talked with baby daddy about all the 'complications'. He's willing to wait, but not wait too long, he wants me bound and tied down before the baby comes. I looked into a divorce, and it should be around 90 days since I expect it to not be contested.
That's it in a nutshell. I will be walking the straight and narrow from now on.
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