We Both Feel Horrible But Yet We Don’t Stop

My older brother passed away form Covid it was a rough time for everyone. We where not twins we where 5 years apart he was married with 2 kids my nice and nephew who I love very much. He did the college thing met he wife started a family had a good life. I went to work the day after my high school graduation knowing I was going to farm for my dad. As my dad got older I was the only one who had any interest in putting in the work. I have or had 4 brothers and a sister and all wanted nothing to do with it. I always enjoyed being outdoors and pit my career ahead of anything else. While farming is hard work very hard work it can be very rewarding. My dad slowly started to step away and as he did I started to grow the company. There was and is some resentment from my brothers wives who feel that they should get a piece of the pie. My dad and mom before they passed made it so once they were gone they would get a chunk of change but the farm and all its assets went to me. Again I’m the only one who worked there no once wanted to get dirty they just wanted a check for ever. After some small legal battles it went away they my brothers and sisters where mad. At family functions they where odd but made it work. I dated but never married in 2020 months after everything shut down my brother who I resembled got admitted to the hospital and it wet all bad. 2 weeks of hell no one could see him or go in only a couple at a time could see him thru a glass window and a phone to talk to him. He was unable to talk had a breathing tube. I had a good buddies wife who worked as a nurse there so she would fill us in and was honest when she said it wasn’t looking good. He passes and it’s bad K his wife was a mess she for months had panic attacks couldn’t work. Her kids would tell us that she was way behind on. A lot of things bills etc… mortgage. I never reached out until it was to late she was foreclosed on and had to get out. I had purchased a few properties and with these properties where older houses on it. Most of the times I had my good workers living there as part of there pay. But I had purchased a large property with 4 dwellings in it. Now my SIL I had never though of her as sexy she was just my SIL she moved into the home we agreed that she would pay a little and at first the did but she would have some times that she just lost it. My niece and nephew where involved and we all tried to get her out of the rut. I had got some planter boxes for her to help her get a hobby maybe a little garden getting outside always helped me so why not. I stopped by the ranch house who was pretty far from the road so you can hear a car coming from a mile away. I knocked and nothing then i went around saw her car knocked on the back door and saw her stumbling over to open the door. She could hardly stand. I helped her she looked like shit been crying I had her by the waist and her arm around my shoulder. She looked at me and said how much I remember your brother. It made me feel bad when she leaned in and kissed me. I tired to stop her but she said no no don’t let me so I kissed her back. I knew it was the booze and I really tried to stop. Next thing I knew she’s on all 4s naked completely naked and I’m balls deep. I shot my load and left. I instantly felt horrible and threw up. Not because her but guilt. I went back later that night to check on her and she had slept her buzz away. She apologized and we spoke and i fucked her again. It’s been 4 years and I sometimes sleep over there or she sleeps over here. I see her a totally different way then before. She worked very little lost her job no one knew she just kept living here. I work hard still she makes me lunch and dinner when we fuck we fuck. At times I still feel bad but it’s not we are cheating. She is a tall slender strawberry blond with reddish pussy hair. We don’t plan on letting anyone know. The back yard table is sturdy and that bubble bitt has taken a beating there lots of times. When the family gets together we do. It mess around but the minute everyone leaves it’s on.