I Hate My Boobs

I’m way too small for how big my boobs are. I wear a 28 J bra. I have to special order them, which is expensive. I’m only 5’3. I hate the way I look. I’m short, tiny waist, nice butt, but then 2 giant sacks of fat hanging off the front of me. I feel like when guys look at me it’s more of a “look at that freakshow” than a “I want to get her number.” I never really had a bf. I never had…you know… I’ve never lain with anyone, you could say. I just don’t feel attractive bc of my boobs and given my back pain and cost of specially made bras I’m probably going to get a reduction, but is there anyone out there who would be interested in someone with a body like this?