My Ultimate Fantasy

My ultimate fantasy has been for years to go to Bangkok and have my dick cut off and have my own vagina and little pert titties but stay as a man just dress up. Love the dressing up have do e since I was 8 have always wished to be a women but recently id love to stay a man but with vagina and boobs . Id fuck myself every day and have lots of strangers fuck me in carpark and woods dressed up. Use to go for any guy in gay times also g as he would fuck me outdoors I use to love being seen dressed up and sometimes getting caught while they fuck me. Had two girlfriends on the go at one stage but that wasn't enough use to meet any men let them bareback fuck me outdoors. My full time girlfriend knew nothing until I told her I preferred cock since then I've been out but still fucked fit birds but dressed up. My old mate Lindsey use to do my makeup dress me up then piss and shit over me but that was years ago I think that's what got me in to it. She was dirty slut but don't see her now. Last time I fucked her was in her and her boyfriends bed and he came home I had to pretend I was the carpet cleaner giving her a price. Was last time I see her. She was my dirty girlfriend for 10 years she knew all about me. We use to get on the coke and get filthy together she would always dress me up. If only I could meet her now would be lots of fun. She always said if I got a vagina she would get a cock and fuck me all the time but that sadly didn't happen. I'm gonna do it in the future just gotta go d 20k for op.i live dressing up and getting on the gear. I have people watching me and filming me they must get off over it to be doing for so long but I've never seen them. They seen me with shit all over my face being filthy . I k ow there there I can hear them and see there camera's but just got use to it.. if they like it that much so. Be it I'm not gonna change. I actually live people seeing me dressed I use to have a web page use to shit and eat it and smear all over me on film hadany many friends but I fucked up one day said the wrong thing they deleted my profile. Use to live watching films of me shifting live seeing crossdresser shit imagining them doing it in my mouth on film for all to see. That's why got so many Facebook pages me dressed as Katie love my friends and people seeing me is like a bit of humiliation. Just missing having a cock on tow now. Had a 25yo cock in my mouth the other week and was sniffing gear he brought and I was on gear but he went shy not seen him since. He was the youngest guy I've had my favourites are 60 us men they know how to do everything and still got big cocks. That's me now I've told you what I love I'm off now to shave do makeup and dress up some more Which I love the most. Gear just helps . Never tried without gear but prefer it like that just sometimes I've gone over the top and talk alot of shit that I regret.. old men is exactly what I need. Bye for now. Katie