Drifting Into CD Land

If you don't like CD or dress up or bi stories, please move on to the next confession. Have a nice day.

I got married for looks and boob size, I will be honest. Unfortunately hot doesn't necessarily equate into great in bed. And that's where we ended up with zero sex life.

My wife is a 5'2 120 dirty blond top heavy 34G natural giant juggs hottie. If she likes sex, it's not sex with me. She spends the bulk of her day (supposedly) at the gym. Although we've encountered enough large muscular black men outside of the gym to give me a firm impression, she spends time outside the gym too.

After so many years of no sex, and too much time on my hands (I dont have to work anymore) I drifted on to the other side of the fence looking for the next fun thing. I had several FWBs, they always seemed to want longer term real engagements and it was just too much trouble to rip the family apart just for great sex.

I finally found bi and sissy videos. I never would have thought that would entice me, but it was naughty and forbidden and there are always more honry guys out there it seems than girls. I often wonder if decreasing testosterone has something to do with my desire to become more sissy'd and explore sex with men.

I started dressing in lingerie, big bras, giant fake jiggly water boobs, thigh hi's etc. This was back when CL was around and finding horny men for someone dressed slutty was easy, they weren't getting any at home either.

I had several hot encounters with men fucking me, most of them so horny and turned on they would cum in 5 minutes and start apologising. I thought it was cute that they couldn't hold back and it made me feel sexy. And if you've ever had a sissy prostate orgasm you know what I mean. And the hot feeling of a man filling you with his hot seed, it changes you.

After awhile it got to be too much trouble hooking up and sneaking around. I'm sure my wife would have loved to find out so she could have exposed me and taken all our money and moved off to have hot BBC sex all day.

So I started down the "self care" using toys all the time mode rather than with guys. Safer and easier to hide. When the misses is gone I stay in my big bra and thigh highs with garter and lipstick all day fucking myself to orgasm without touching my clitty.

The main reason of this confession... I order toys from amazon, they are reasonably priced but you cant send them back. It's hard to tell sometimes from the description what you are going to get sometimes. This one I recently purchased, it is huge. It is 8" around. I tried getting it all in stuck against
the wall but I couldn't do it, so I sat on it and got it all the way in.

I felt like cumming but was so full it wouldn't squirt out. Once I hit the vibrate button i started have dry orgasm after orgasm. I never felt anything like it.

I now know how a woman feels after encountering a BBC or BWC, I wasn't able to walk right today. It's probably not a good idea to use this all the time, but it sure is tempting.

If you feel like you have to criticise this, use a dildo on your ass and have a no touch your cock prostate orgasm before you say anything.

Thanks for reading....