Bi-Sexual Male / 49
Reclaiming Being Single
So, boring middle aged guy here, separated from my wife a couple of years ago and have had a couple of girlfriends since. So the last one and I parted recently, she was cute but very vanilla, I am very far from. So while I was with her I didn't drink, and definitely didn't take anything But now I am single.
So I asked my friend from work for some of her ADHD med. Basically speed brings out the slut in me. I am not sure if she suspects what I want it for. It is the slow release stuff, and after about an hour, of slowly drinking and smoking and watching soft porn my cock is soft but dribbling, sometimes it takes me differently and makes me hard, today it made my dick feel small but solid, I had been teasing my foreskin for a while. I also went into the shower and shave myself bald. I had been enjoying a fantasy about telling the girl I got the stuff off what I was doing with it, and whether she would be interested in doing some with me.. and enjoying those thoughts. Then as is my way I knew it was time. When I get languorous and relaxed with my brain obsessed by sex, I want to put something in my butt. I discovered I liked this when I was about nineteen and I took my anal virginity with the neck of a Jack Daniels bottle and a lot of butter, but that is another story. I head to the bathroom to make sure all is clean, I read the gay confessions on this site while I lube around my butt and slip a finger in. When a story of a guy having his ass wrecked takes my fancy I stop procrastinating and push two fingers in hard. I work the lube in hard rolling my fingers round inside. I go back In front of the porn, and kneel over the butt plug stuck to the floor it is a good size. I smear a squirt of lube on it and jerk it like a cock. I then start the camera on my phone, zoom it close and kneel over the plug and lower myself slowly. I have to lower gently guiding the top to my hole. I make it a game to not use my hands, thinking I am dirty enough to find it with my hungry butt alone. When I feel the tip touch I lower slowly, gyrating my hips, swinging my heavy swollen cock. When I feel the fattest part squeeze past my ring I push down hard until my buttocks hit the floor, I wriggle again. Then the d***s and the filthy take me, I kneel up fast ripping the plug out, it had ridges that send a shiver of fire around my ring. Then I collapse down on it hard shoving it all the way back in. Sometimes I like to super rough to my ass, I live the feeling when I am so open and slick that I can shove a nine inch fat dildo into me in one go and rip it out and my ass will just suck it in because it so open and loose. I then gyrate on it for a while, letting myself grease up and absorb it. I unstick it from the floor and walk to the fridge, the feeling in me changes as I move, as I bend over to get a bottle out of the fridge I think how horny it would if someone was watching me bend over, showing what was in there. I also idly think about using the bottle on myself. I am sure I will later. I get on my knees again in front of the porn on tv. With my ass about three inches off the floor I start to push, it feels like I am taking a long slow shit on the floor, just when it feels like it about to come out I let my ass swallow it again. I take the cum dripping from my dick on my fingers and taste it, then I rub it on my neck as aftershave. I am off to the pub right now. Talk later.
So I asked my friend from work for some of her ADHD med. Basically speed brings out the slut in me. I am not sure if she suspects what I want it for. It is the slow release stuff, and after about an hour, of slowly drinking and smoking and watching soft porn my cock is soft but dribbling, sometimes it takes me differently and makes me hard, today it made my dick feel small but solid, I had been teasing my foreskin for a while. I also went into the shower and shave myself bald. I had been enjoying a fantasy about telling the girl I got the stuff off what I was doing with it, and whether she would be interested in doing some with me.. and enjoying those thoughts. Then as is my way I knew it was time. When I get languorous and relaxed with my brain obsessed by sex, I want to put something in my butt. I discovered I liked this when I was about nineteen and I took my anal virginity with the neck of a Jack Daniels bottle and a lot of butter, but that is another story. I head to the bathroom to make sure all is clean, I read the gay confessions on this site while I lube around my butt and slip a finger in. When a story of a guy having his ass wrecked takes my fancy I stop procrastinating and push two fingers in hard. I work the lube in hard rolling my fingers round inside. I go back In front of the porn, and kneel over the butt plug stuck to the floor it is a good size. I smear a squirt of lube on it and jerk it like a cock. I then start the camera on my phone, zoom it close and kneel over the plug and lower myself slowly. I have to lower gently guiding the top to my hole. I make it a game to not use my hands, thinking I am dirty enough to find it with my hungry butt alone. When I feel the tip touch I lower slowly, gyrating my hips, swinging my heavy swollen cock. When I feel the fattest part squeeze past my ring I push down hard until my buttocks hit the floor, I wriggle again. Then the d***s and the filthy take me, I kneel up fast ripping the plug out, it had ridges that send a shiver of fire around my ring. Then I collapse down on it hard shoving it all the way back in. Sometimes I like to super rough to my ass, I live the feeling when I am so open and slick that I can shove a nine inch fat dildo into me in one go and rip it out and my ass will just suck it in because it so open and loose. I then gyrate on it for a while, letting myself grease up and absorb it. I unstick it from the floor and walk to the fridge, the feeling in me changes as I move, as I bend over to get a bottle out of the fridge I think how horny it would if someone was watching me bend over, showing what was in there. I also idly think about using the bottle on myself. I am sure I will later. I get on my knees again in front of the porn on tv. With my ass about three inches off the floor I start to push, it feels like I am taking a long slow shit on the floor, just when it feels like it about to come out I let my ass swallow it again. I take the cum dripping from my dick on my fingers and taste it, then I rub it on my neck as aftershave. I am off to the pub right now. Talk later.
