Bi-Sexual Male / 37
The Memories Of Abuse Turn Me On So Much
Im 37, married, happy.
I had a messed up childhood, was used and abused in countless way from 6-7 till 15 when my step dad was imprisoned
i kind of shut it out, but last few years ive been thinking about it more and more, and wanking thinking about it almost daily. My wife knows and helps me out and lets me talk about it.I feel so Guilty that it turns me on, so much. I meet pervy guys and get turned on seeing how much my expereinces makes them hard and talking through it all in detail with them is like an addiction. I even wish i was young again. And i always feel guilty, even after a cam session with a guy, not even a meet.
No inclination to do anyting taboo myself, just the memories are so vivid. and i kind of like being fucked up, which is an even worse thing
I had a messed up childhood, was used and abused in countless way from 6-7 till 15 when my step dad was imprisoned
i kind of shut it out, but last few years ive been thinking about it more and more, and wanking thinking about it almost daily. My wife knows and helps me out and lets me talk about it.I feel so Guilty that it turns me on, so much. I meet pervy guys and get turned on seeing how much my expereinces makes them hard and talking through it all in detail with them is like an addiction. I even wish i was young again. And i always feel guilty, even after a cam session with a guy, not even a meet.
No inclination to do anyting taboo myself, just the memories are so vivid. and i kind of like being fucked up, which is an even worse thing
