Safe In The Closet Is Where I Want To Remain

In a world that we have today, there is a lot of pressure to come out. I haven't, I keep my gay side to myself. I believe I'm gay in the closet as opposed to bisexual. Sex for me is with men, with my wife it's a marital chore. Frankly naked women have never done anything for me. I only cruise gay porn and I have a fixation on older men. Generally, almost without exception, all the gay men I've been with are older.

I have my way, I take care when selecting, sometimes it takes a while before I move forward. I makes sure the man is gay and wants to have gay sex. I'm accommodating, and will perform oral sex, will kiss, will give him hand sex, and will if he is the right man that night, give him anal sex as well. I have a hit or miss record on demanding condoms. I prefer a naked cock. I cannot for the life of me figure out what's the difference, I already sucked his penis, swallowed his cum, and so what if he goes full bareback on me? In any event, to date I have never caught anything I need to be embarrassed about.

I belong to a couple of dating sights, which facilitate meeting men. My MO is to meet them at a public restaurant and size each other out. Most men are not much different than me, blind dates are a risk, so you have to get comfortable. I want sex, not get sucked into some philosophical argument. Just sex, in and out, some manhandling, some necking and kissing, and wham bam, in and out and I'm on my way. First name basis only. I am not out on a date.