And In The Blink Of An Eye My Life Was Upside Down

In my last year of college I was 'put upon by a man'. I struggled, I think. I thought I had disengaged. I thought but I thought wrong, he reengaged and it was over. I mean my life as I had known it. I was late. In spite of all I really didn't understand how it happened. The nurse explained how my cervix opened when I was aroused. How long sperm can live inside of you. How easy a fertilized egg is to implant.

A well wishing friend suggested an abortion, don't mention it to anybody. She confided that she had an abortion in high school. My first reaction was I can't. I won't. She asked what if he wanted an abortion? I can't.

He said no. To an abortion. He didn't even confirm with me that it was his. Without any discussion he told me we needed to get married. It was a licensed friend of his who married us. It wasn't until after graduation that I told my parents.