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Men Only
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Straight Male / 39
Barely Man Enough
Summer was short, and every day precious, before the fall. Living in Fairbanks was winter living, we were adapted to that. Summer highs brought out our swim trunks and shorts to blend in with kids in the lower 48. We were students at UAF. I had met Charlene, or Charly, and was in love. Charly was home schooled, lived deep off the grid. Intelligent but unaccustomed to formal schooling. I was a native, third generation, of Fairbanks. She had been told to stay away from us.
I worked hard that summer to overcome her resistance. I was going to be a senior in the fall, I couldn't afford another summer failure. I asked her to go out, out into the wilderness. It was totally embarrassing, she was more at home than I was. Showing off was useless. Out there with no one around us she asked me to show her my dick. Too small, she told me she could only be with a man with a big dick, you know, like a man.
Put down, shamed, irrelevant.
At the pizza joint a guy was putting the moves on her. "What's the matter with you? No balls? Kick his ass, get him off of me. Just my luck, I have a baby dick boyfriend". How in hell do you crawl out of that hole? The guy was big, a head taller, he was a 'star' football player.
I got my manhood test handed to me, and I failed.
Saturday came and went, I hung out with my other baby dick friends. Sunday came. The phone rang. "I'm waiting, where are you?" Oh God, church, I forgot about church.
A week before fall classes started I was on a bush plain flying south, landed on a river, to meet her father, Ol' Grizzly himself, to ask his permission to marry his only daughter. I swear I heard her "Daddy, this is baby dick". No running water, no electric lights, one room cabin. "Speak up!" She was so embarrassed with me.
"An engineer, if she thought that was ok with her". Ol' Grizzly wasn't convinced.
I took a job as a junior engineer on the North Slope. She gave birth in that one room cabin in the woods. Her mother was with her. When she was born her mother was alone, her father was hunting for game. I got notice, from the manual radio, over the back woods network, a son.
I worked hard that summer to overcome her resistance. I was going to be a senior in the fall, I couldn't afford another summer failure. I asked her to go out, out into the wilderness. It was totally embarrassing, she was more at home than I was. Showing off was useless. Out there with no one around us she asked me to show her my dick. Too small, she told me she could only be with a man with a big dick, you know, like a man.
Put down, shamed, irrelevant.
At the pizza joint a guy was putting the moves on her. "What's the matter with you? No balls? Kick his ass, get him off of me. Just my luck, I have a baby dick boyfriend". How in hell do you crawl out of that hole? The guy was big, a head taller, he was a 'star' football player.
I got my manhood test handed to me, and I failed.
Saturday came and went, I hung out with my other baby dick friends. Sunday came. The phone rang. "I'm waiting, where are you?" Oh God, church, I forgot about church.
A week before fall classes started I was on a bush plain flying south, landed on a river, to meet her father, Ol' Grizzly himself, to ask his permission to marry his only daughter. I swear I heard her "Daddy, this is baby dick". No running water, no electric lights, one room cabin. "Speak up!" She was so embarrassed with me.
"An engineer, if she thought that was ok with her". Ol' Grizzly wasn't convinced.
I took a job as a junior engineer on the North Slope. She gave birth in that one room cabin in the woods. Her mother was with her. When she was born her mother was alone, her father was hunting for game. I got notice, from the manual radio, over the back woods network, a son.
