Getting Divorced

by Anonymous on May 30, 2025 at 8:38 PM

Cuckquean is the name for that fetish.

Basically you love to know or see your loved one having sex with another woman. Of course, your divorce is making the "loved one" a bit odd, but it doesn't always need to be loved one. It can be also someone who is important to you, or basically someone you have some feelings to.

Also, when you're cuckquean, you see yourself low, not enough for anyone, and that despite you like sex, sex clearly isn't meant for you to have, and that arouses you. I've been having these feelings for over twenty five years now, but only about five years ago I heard about what it is.

And I loved it. I wanted my ex boyfriend to cheat on me. I got a third woman for him, and we were having sex several times. I was mostly watching them and fingering myself, loving to know my boyfriend were having sex with another woman. Many times, I left the bedroom and just listened. It was more arousing than to watch them, because he had told me one time how the woman had felt more relaxed when I hadn't been in the room.

Lately my fantasies have returned to the times when we were young, 20 years old, I absolutely loved to know how my friend were having sex with a former ex of one of our friends. I had no means to have him, he clearly didn't liked me in that way, but I could still "live" the sexual part through her when she told me about their sex. For them, it was just sex and fun. They weren't having a serious relationship. But even then, he wasn't even a bit interested of me, although I too would had loved to offer him some sex and fun without any relationship needs. I don't know why I feel this way but I've been extremely aroused when my friends have talked about meeting someone, or when they've had sex with for example their co-workers or collagues, and I've never experienced anything like that. I've had only two boyfriends, but my toybox is full of toys I've bought and named by my friends sexual friends. I have only one friend to whom I have admitted having a fetish like this, but she didn't really understood it. She took it like she too have masturbated while having a dry season to some of our friends sexy boyfriends or husbands. But it isn't that. It's the feeling how they deserve sex and that I know sex clearly isn't meant for me.