Had I Ruined The Moment, Should Had Married A Non Christain

I had attended church, but I don't call myself a bible thumber. But here's the deal. I married my bible school buddy Bill he's 25. During our honeymoon holiday. Third night. We went out to dinner then back to the resort. I thought I would surprise him. Earlier that day I shaved my mound completely. We got ready for bed. I wore the black knit tie up nighty. We laid down in bed, Bill took position between my open legs and untied the nighty. He viewed my shaved mound. I then handed him a tube of lube with strawberry favoring. And asked let's get kinky tonight. He replied oh hell no.