Sex Fantasy
I would love to share a cock with my wife.
I started out going to an ABS about half an hour from my house with a few condoms and tried sucking cock that way, all I heard from the men was I gave an amazing blow job. I posted an ad on DList looking for a divorced dad who just wanted to be serviced, took a while to find him but he was just that, divorced and had no time to spare for dating with an average cut cock. I suck him off a few times a week to a month, basically whenever he messages me for it.
That’s interesting. I am married and appeared to be heterosexual, but I’ve always loved cock. I’m not interested in anything romantic. I’m also not interested in any kind of relationship. I just love to suck cock and love to have my cock sucked by either women or men. I love to eat pussy too One time I was able to eat my wife’s pussy while another cock was fucking it. He came in her pussy and pulled out, and I got to lick her pussy hole with his cum in it. It was really a turn on. I never used to have these thoughts, but I have been considering what it would be like to have a cock fuck me in the ass and cum inside of me. I’m sure it would hurt I guess but I’ve heard men say that having a cock in your ass is very pleasurable. I think there must be something that plays a man when his ass is fucked.I guess I’m gay but not traditionally speaking.
I am in my early 60s now. I have to edit this to be brief not my forte. I became sexually active lets say I think first grade. With my step sibling. My age as well. How we decided to I think because we shared a room but with our own beds we saw one another playing with ourselves at night. This lead to bed sharing and mutual touch and one of us decided with no outside influence to use our mouths. So dad and his mom eventually divorced. My dad the mean drunk. I moved with my mom and made new friends who when we camped out in our backyard tent.well the play continued. Me and my best friend Tim and then a new friend a year or so older. He had a single dad. I will just say that about 6th grade I asked his dad if I could like my friends. I was curious to see what it would be like. That lasted 3 years or a little more. Learned as one might imagine and I loved it and it is perhaps some of my best memories. Not condoning or promoting as I know I was an outlier kid.
But then I moved away and my Best buddy Tim's grandparents lived near me so he came over still on weekends to my new house. We were now in our teens and up until we were 16 we sucked one another a bunch. I loved his cock in hindsight all these years later and him as well. But we both knew we were straight. We would get married and have kids etc. This was just to take care of our needs when the girls didn't play we told ourselves. Life went on. I in the Army. Wife 1 loved LOTS of men when I was in the Army. Divorced. Wife 2 super good and super great sex and a one man woman. Wife 3 conservative Christian background faith but was oddly told by a pastor she had when she was in her late 20's that what her and a future husband decide to do sexually in marriage is okay so long as it doesn't include others. So many of my kinks if not too outlandish she will try. I even confessed that after reading and knowing my internal feelings that I thought I am bi. SHe said the vows were to not have sex outside of marriage with either sex. But the bi thing was fine. And she has even heard some details or a lot over the years of those experiences. I told her even that I think in hindsight I loved my Friend Tim in a relationship sort of way without ever realizing it until late in life. He passed away early in life in his sleep.
I can't have a better wife and life so all my thoughts and desires often remain a fantasy. We use toys. I do what others have done. She knows it and has pegged me. She is good with all that.
All this to say. I think the labels and pigeon holes we have in life are that. I think you can have gay sex and not be gay. I don't even think you have to be bi to do this. I call myself bi because I think if I were single I would now be aware if feelings were to develop between me and a dude. I could maybe have a full on relationship now with another man. I THINK. I have never so I am not sure. I still believe women are more nurturing and therefore it would be a different yet good relationship. I imagine two dudes that are best buds that the love goes deeper.
But I think having sex alone doesn't make you gay or bi.
I never see men in public and think boy I want to have sex with him or that he is hot. A guy can be a bit homely but if I talk to him and he seems to be a good guy etc I might later reflect and say...I would do him. And yet I call myself bi.
I use dildos. I don't oral them though only because even the real feel type are not moaning lol. I have used 2 inch diameter or over 6 in circumference and as long as about a foot. I think I am always thinking maybe one day I will be given a green light or maybe a 3 way would one day happen even though I doubt it.
So much for brevity.
I've fantasised about sucking cock for many years, but have never done it.
Don’t know how common it is, but I am another one, I has gay sex several times even before teen years, and have been “hetero” since adulthood, but I still cherish the dicks I had while young and I often share fantasies with my wife about both of us being fucked, specially by a friend of her and another friend of mine, I usually get very horny and cum when I tell her I would love to have his dick in my ass or both getting fucked by one of them, she is not really into too much sex exploring but she likes to get me horny with those fantasies