I Have An Attraction To Older Men, Not Anyone In My Age Group.

Sorry if this upsets you. I am one of five of a religious blue collar couple. I followed my mother as a regular helper at church after school. From the age of fourteen until I left for college I was in a sexual relationship with the Pastor. I never felt shame or regret for having sex with him. I didn't get pregnant because he secretly put me on birth control.

After college I got into a sexual affair with an older married man at work. When his wife found out, she hired a private detective, I had to listen to her lecture. She was, and is, unable to understand what I saw in him, being so much older. Again, no embarrassment no regrets.

I have no attraction for anyone in my age group. I have strong attractions to my lover. We're not supposed to be in an affair any more, but desire is a strong motivator to do what I need to do to meet him for sexual encounters. I'm his girlfriend and I call him, you guessed it, Papa.