Would Like Real Cock Inside Me

I am a straight married man with a strange fantasy mind and desire. I don't know if anyone can relate. I absolutely love woman and am married to a 50 something gal who has aged to perfection with prettiest face and greatest tits and pussy in the world. I lust after women I can't have. I mentally masturbate over women at work daily.


Ever since I started masturbating at about 12, I've always loved ass play. I loved fingering my own ass, and over time worked my way up to objects of ever increasing size. I love fucking myself in the ass with dildos. I bought a huge natural feeling dildo for my wife(who doesn't like it because it's too big) , really for myself. I have had so many grand jerk off sessions with that thing buried deep inside myself and it's been wonderful. Getting my ass fully filled just enhancing the orgasm so much.

Funny I am not at all attracted to men. The thought of kissing or cuddling with another dude is nothing I would ever desire, yet I am attracted to cocks and want to feel a real one deep inside me. Just as much I would love to suck a beautiful cock until it exploded in my mouth. I would love to swallow a load. I enjoy watching gay porn of the very close up variety that shows a cock going into as ass with the other hard cock in the picture.

I never want to see the men kissing or even their faces but love seeing some cleanly shaven cock and balls and a great fuck session. I love seeing a cock going balls deep in another ass while the other cock is being stroked off to a cum shot. There is nothing better than seeing a great close up fuck scene where that man doing the pushing cums deep inside the other with this cock and balls pulsating in the aftermath. I also love to the the man on top pull out and cum all over the bottom's balls and ass.

Oh how I just want to feel a real cock fucking my ass and coming inside me. This would have to be done in the dark or with me blindfolded for I never would want to see the other man's face, just his cock. I would love to also suck his cock until he shot it all in my mouth. If I did reach my ultimate fantasy of getting a real cock deep in my ass, I don't know if I would want him to shoot deep inside and just let it pulsate and fully drain or would I want his load to be blown all over me. It would be a very hard choice. Chances are that this fantasy will never be fulfilled, but it sure is hot to think about. In the mean time I fucking love sex with my wife who has eaten pussy while I watched, which was of the greatest fantasies fulfilled.

Can anyone relate?