Closet Cocksucker

I uncovered my true nature as a gay man and basically a cocksucker in my mid 30's. My marriage had ended and up to that point I had lived a straight life. I bought a condo after the divorce and quit my high stress finance job for a non stressful much lower paying job in condo security in a nearby building. I work nights and loved the quieter life.

There was an attraction to men especially older men I had tepressed for years. I smoked cigarettes then and enjoyed sucking on the filter when taking a drag and having a cigarette dangling from my mouth felt strangely erotic. Maybe a phallic thing. When I watched porn the cocks fascinated me the most and I pictured myself sucking them.

There was an adult bookstore with video booths a few blocks away. I started going there at noon for several hours of edging as I watched porn in a booth. I switched to gay porn and got even more aroused. Before long men were blowing me or masturbating me in the booth and soon I was on my knees sucking and worshipping cocks. Over time I primarily became a cocksucker being most sexually aroused by sucking cocks and swallowing loads of cum. Some men masturbated on my face but I preferred to drain them completely. Often I now delayed masturbating until I got home to maximize the pleasure. I quit smoking as cocksucking took over satisfying my oral needs. At this point I was a regular at the booths and realized I was not only gay but an addicted cocksucker.

Most of the men were older than me often beyond 60. I loved that as I found older men.to be my preference. Attracted to their looks and gentle ways as they were more patient and relaxed than younger guys. Many were married and retired.

Over the 20 years I have drained cock I have noticed several recurring patterns. The older men are often regulars and some love to kiss and make out prior to the sex. I discovered this awakened a deeper need and pleasure in me and I kissed back with mounting passion as my arousal intensified. It made the cocksucking more loving and meaningful. There are 5 or 6 regulars in their 60's or 70's I have pleasured many times who always seem excited to see me. Their looks and ages vary but the same feeling comes over me. When making out with them then sucking their cock I know I feel something primal. I am there solely for them in those special moments in the booth and after they have their orgasm that connection seems to last for hours if not days in my mind. Whether they are married or not I am their secret partner and cocksucker. I love them in a way that the outside world would never understand. One of them is in his late 60's bald with glasses and somewhat chubby.He is a wet soft kisser and it takes him awhile for his fat little cock to spurt but I love every drop. In contrast another regular is white haired tall and slim probably mid 70's with a bigger cut cock than mine that gets pretty hard for his age and blows a big load. He kisses deeper and more intensely and talks dirty as I blow him. He tells me he loves me as I deepthroat him dry. There are several others I truly enjoy but these 2 are the ones that excite me to the highest level of arousal.