My Sister And I Did Everything Except Sex Before Her Marriage

I don't know why I am posting this. this happened so long ago and my English is broken so deal with it

All I want to know is what you guys think about this. was it ok. and what would you do if you were in my place or in my place right now. so I am 26 M my sister is 5 years older then me and even after one baby she is still hot as fuck

for context we are Indian my sister is fair skin not so tall slim woman her ass is not small but also not that big but her boobs are big as fuck and she has small pointy nipples. how I know all this, well that is the story.

me and my sister was always close. she was my best friend since childhood we had a very good relationship she was basically my role model she was confident kind and always supportive towards me.

but everything change when I turned 18. male hormone I guess I started watching her differently and that is the first time I realise how beautiful and hot my sister is. we Indians are little conservative but she still didn't wear much clothes around me. not completely naked but I could see her cleavage and her thighs and I also used to massage her so that also didn't help. massage as an excuse I used to touch her ass her side boobs her thighs, I just couldn't control myself. and my sister could also feel that I am taking advantage she used to cover things with her hands. she is not fool but she never stopped me.

It happened when I was 20. it was summer she came back from college and everyone was happy. the thing is me and my sister we always used to share beds since childhood. and that day was really hot. she was wearing a little t-shirt and she lift the t-shirt a little above her belly and accidently and it was really an accident I touched her belly skin was very very soft I don't know what came into my mind but I started to move my hand towards her boobs. I was trying to touch them but her bra was in the middle. and then certainly she grabbed my hand and my soul left my body. I thought she was asleep 5 minutes ago we were laughing and my brilliant mind thought she was asleep.

I was so afraid but then I don't know what came into her mind she took her bra off and let me touch her boobs it was shock and pleasure at the same time then she grabbed my head and pull me towards her boobs and let me suck them and trust me when I say this it was like heaven I was licking them and sucking them like a baby. she guided my hands towards her pussy told me to rub it and she pull my dick out of my pants and started rubbing it I came in the bed and I think she came too.

next morning with pretended like nothing happened. she told me good morning and I did the same. our mother asked why is the bed wet I said it was just sweat. she was in the room but didn't look me in the eye.

after that for 1 year nothing happened. we pretend like nothing happened and whenever she was home we slept in separate beds. but I was confused what she wants because I can notice she was more affectionate towards me she was wearing less clothes around me she was cuddling more with me and whenever I was massaging her she purposely lower her pants and told me to massage that area and her side boobs and she stopped covering them with her hands as if she wants me to touch them.

then it happened again it was winter and it was our cousins wedding and she was home. she insist that we sleep in the same bad like old times. in the night she took my hand and put it in her belly so I caught the signal moved my hand towards her boobs she immediately took her bra of and told me to suck them so i did then she told me to go lower to lick her pussy and so I did she was holding her moans because our parents were in the next room. she was twisting and turning I was rock hard I tried to put it in but she told me we can't cross that line. I rubbed it against her pussy then she told me to Lick again she came in my mouth she gave me a blow after that and I came in her mouth. And again in the morning we pretend like nothing happened, normal siblings.

then it happened again and again and again and again. we never cross the line so I don't know it counts as i****t or not, for me it does count.

she is married now and nothing happened between us after the marriage. the problem is I could not move on after the marriage I tried to see her as my normal sister but I just couldn't.

I am having problem in my relationships I am never sexually satisfied with my girlfriend.

can you guys give me some advice. I am posting this here because I want to get this thing off my chest.

I am thinking you guys can understand my situation. this might be a weird request but let me know what you guys think about me and my sister's relationship and thanks for reading