Asexual, Indifferent

I was chosen for a part in our junior high play. We had practice after school. Because I wouldn't take the bus my mom had to take off early and pick me up and take me home.

One afternoon my mom didn't show. I waited but she didn't show. I got worried and went into the office and her work said she had left on time. The secretary helped calling the police if an accident had been reported, then the hospital if someone had been admitted. Nothing was found out. Ehen the secretary took me home, the house was quiet, she didn't let me stay, she took me home with her. My mom never appeared, I was alone, her family was far away, and no one stepped up to support me. The secretary took me in, while the authorities decided what was going to happen to me.

After I finished high school I went to a state university. I became a teacher. It was then that I met the father of one of my students who took me to become his wife. Now I had a step daughter of my own.

I don't think I ever enjoyed sex. It was something I had to do. I still don't enjoy sex, it's a take or leave it thing. Because the man wants it. My step daughter us now a woman of her own. I don't have a relationship with her to discuss her sexual nature. Mine I don't discuss either.

Over these years I've tried sex with a stranger, another woman, a pool boy. It's always the same. I do not get any pleasure from sex, if it never happened I don't think I would search it out for myself.