Serving And Creaming

So this is not going to sit well with lots of folks who see men like me as weak and somehow damaged. Perhaps that's true. It's also true that knowing one self is the first step to finding sexual satisfaction. We all have our own quirks and things that turn us on or turn us off. So asking to just confess and not be condemned for what may be strange to many but it works for us.
My perverse and shameful kink is a fascination with cuckoldry. It began when I was quite young and involved girl friends whom I'd set up with other boys. It was somehow shameful and embarrassing to seemingly be deceived by these girls but it always got me so very hot thinking about "my girlfriend" being kissed and felt up by another boy. I remember one of the first times it happened, I had told a fellow I knew about my gf Carol's loving her ears kissed and touched while kissing and petting and if he kept it up he could get his hand under her blouse and feel her titties and if he went slowly he could get almost anything he wanted.
So I watched from the shadows as he took her into this empty house the kids used to go into and drink and fool around there. I'd gone there myself but never with Carol. I saw her going there with this older kid and watched from the side window as he got his hand under her blouse, he got her to slip her tit out of her bra so he could actually suck on her tit! When I saw that I realized my dick was super hard and I unzipped my jeans and stroked myself off as I watched this guy Sean getting what all the boys wanted back then. After I had cum I was crushed at the thought that my gf had cheated on me. I knew I couldn't face her but at the same time I was super horny to kiss her and know what a little slut she had been. But not for me.
She continued to keep me restricted to heavy petting but mostly on the outside of her blouse.
It was exciting to know that she would withhold sex from me but give it to someone else, maybe a bit of a bully type.
Over the years I have continued to have these cuckold desires and wrestled with them until I met my wife. She understands my cuckold fetish and she enjoys it herself in a different fashion.
She likes having a hall pass to have as much or as little sexual fun whenever it suits her. And she loves to indulge me and let me "catch her" being naughty with a variety of men over the last ten years of marriage.
One of the best things we did involved me helping out. It worked with some men but not all were willing to have me either there in person or watching from outside or on video.
Anyway, this time we were away on a business trip and vacation combination in Vegas.
We were staying at one of the nice resort casinos but for this special playtime I booked a room at a hot sheets looking place off the strip where we could have some nasty fun.
There was a bar and lounge attached and we had a couple of drinks and started chatting with a fellow who turned out to be an over the road trucker taking a day's break while something was repaired on his rig. He was sexy in a certain way that turned my wife on. She likes manly men who are a little on the classic manly side, a bit older and chubby and an in charge type.
I myself am rather thin and smaller in the endowment. When we play she loves when it happens to be the lucky guy is well hung. Doesn't always happen but they almost always are bigger than my almost four inches hard.
So the way it went was we got to our room and I took our new friend to have one more at the bar while my wife went to the room and got ready for some fun.
When we were alone I assured the man who's name I forget right now but I think it was Bill.
We were not really interested in his name as much as his dick.
Turned out he was very blessed with a nice stiff and fat nine inches at least.
We started off with me stripping my wife for his pleasure, and as her clothes came off he was able to feel her tits and suck on her nipples and eventually he got his fingers in her panties and was fingering her. At some point he took his wet fingers and made me suck my wife's nectar off them. It was SO hot to be sucking this mans fingers and smelling my wife's kitty on him.
Next thing she's lying on her back and he's kneeling next to her head and feeding her that dick whilst I'm sucking her toes and rubbing her legs which always gets her very hot. She was sucking his big dick like she never had one before. He was telling me how he was gonna fuck the crap out of her and drop at least one load, maybe more.
Well, it progressed to me spreading her legs and taking his dick in my hand and guiding him into her hot sticky hole. She was really hot and she talks really dirty when she gets like that. Tells me what a useless faggot I am and how I'm only good for sucking her clit and finding real men to fuck her. Gets me SO hot watching him slide in to his balls and fuck the shit out of my wife.