Bi-Sexual Male / 49
All I Can Say Is That Having A Man To Make Love With Beats Everything
In my mid forties I was going through marital issues, job issues and expenses issues. I was not myself and each of the issues affected the other issues. My wife was out of town, she escaped our reality by going to her sisters. Our kids were in college and when this happened I stayed home alone. Like a lot of others I turned to porn to get off. At first it was fun, and then it wasn't. Normal porn just didn't do it. I started to looking for alternative porn and to me gay porn was alternative. I found that masturbation after gay porn was intense, and sometimes I woke up hard and wanting to masturbate with visions in my mind of the gay porn I had been watching.
During one of those intense periods, when I masturbated as much as possible I met a man who became friends with me. He was the sales manager for a car dealership and had moved into the neighborhood. Single, divorced, we hung out together. One day he broke the ice and offered to give me a blowjob, he said he was gay. He gave me a blowjob and we went from the living room to his bedroom and we had intense gay sex, which ended with him popping my cherry. I had never had such a rewarding ejaculation like the one I had while he was fucking me.
Laying naked, under the cooling fan, beside him as we recovered was emotional. We came back together, this time kissing and a frontal fucking. I had never been made love to and the experience of being made love to was overwhelming. Skin to skin, cock to cock, his hands on my back, my behind, on my cock, his lips on mine, his lips on my nipples his lips on my cock, it was all beyond any comparison. When he had me take his cock, in full erection in my hand and put his cock in my mouth I was hooked on him.
This affair with him lasted for several years, I divorced my wife, we never did live together, but we hung out together and we had sex with little pretext, he made love and I let him make love to me. For me sex was complete after he had penetrative sex with me. I wanted him to complete himself, to ejaculate in me. I wanted him to kiss me.
He told me he was moving to San Diego and I had to turn him down, my kids were in the LA area and my exwife had never been able to really support herself. I had changed jobs to a job that paid more and I helped her out monthly. I went back to her, or she took me back, and I remember the day I made love to her. Me 49 and she 45, and we had the best sex ever.
My wants gravitate to sex with another man, but I have a hard time replacing the man I had been with. My wife, never had sex with another man, and she found herself in a menopausal state being horny.
I know what I am now, it is my natural gravity. But I need a man who wants to make love with me, not a man who wants to wham bang and move on. I feel the responsibility to my wife and we live together to save money. I've never told her about what I do when I go out, she has her own thoughts about that.
During one of those intense periods, when I masturbated as much as possible I met a man who became friends with me. He was the sales manager for a car dealership and had moved into the neighborhood. Single, divorced, we hung out together. One day he broke the ice and offered to give me a blowjob, he said he was gay. He gave me a blowjob and we went from the living room to his bedroom and we had intense gay sex, which ended with him popping my cherry. I had never had such a rewarding ejaculation like the one I had while he was fucking me.
Laying naked, under the cooling fan, beside him as we recovered was emotional. We came back together, this time kissing and a frontal fucking. I had never been made love to and the experience of being made love to was overwhelming. Skin to skin, cock to cock, his hands on my back, my behind, on my cock, his lips on mine, his lips on my nipples his lips on my cock, it was all beyond any comparison. When he had me take his cock, in full erection in my hand and put his cock in my mouth I was hooked on him.
This affair with him lasted for several years, I divorced my wife, we never did live together, but we hung out together and we had sex with little pretext, he made love and I let him make love to me. For me sex was complete after he had penetrative sex with me. I wanted him to complete himself, to ejaculate in me. I wanted him to kiss me.
He told me he was moving to San Diego and I had to turn him down, my kids were in the LA area and my exwife had never been able to really support herself. I had changed jobs to a job that paid more and I helped her out monthly. I went back to her, or she took me back, and I remember the day I made love to her. Me 49 and she 45, and we had the best sex ever.
My wants gravitate to sex with another man, but I have a hard time replacing the man I had been with. My wife, never had sex with another man, and she found herself in a menopausal state being horny.
I know what I am now, it is my natural gravity. But I need a man who wants to make love with me, not a man who wants to wham bang and move on. I feel the responsibility to my wife and we live together to save money. I've never told her about what I do when I go out, she has her own thoughts about that.
