I Found I Was Gay

so here i am 35 male married 12yrs with 2 young kids my wife and i had a huge fight again any way she tld me to go get fucked i left to cool downafter about 1 hr i ended up sitting in a park collecting my thoughts on what to do ive never done any gay stuff except whe i was 16 a guy sucked me and ive nerver done any thing since any way here im sitting thinking my wife told me to get well and turly fucked and a homeless guy comes up and sits down on the seat looks at me and says you look beat we started talkingi told him my wife told me to get fucked so jokinly he said so have have i ever been fucked i said no he said i can fix that if you want i said are you crazy he said i get married guys come here all the time some even pay me to fuck them thats how i make some moneywe sat talking for a bit and i said how much do they pay most $20-30 bucks he said but first time is freewe sat for a bit and i dont know why but i asked if hed fuck me sure he said we walked to the back part of the park it was real bushywe got in a part he knew i said what now he undid y pants and pulled down my briefs got ne to lean against a branch he pulled out his cock gott me to rub it a bit it got hard he was about 8inchs he spat on his dick and put some sit on his finger and rubbed on my bum hole stuck his finger in and movet it a bit then started to put his dick inme itbhurt a bit but he got it all in and started to slowly fuck me after a bit he cum in me asked how it felt to be fucked it hurt but i liked it thanked him and whent home went home thinking we you told me to get fucked and i did afew days later i went back to the park this time ther were 2 outher guys talking i joinded in then asked them if they would fuck i came prepaired i bought some lube with mewe went to the bush one fucked me while for first time i sucked some ones dick then they swaped places yes i sucked the guy that just fucked me i goto the park on most weekends nowlooking tobe fucked my wife dose not know ijust call it my away time