A Slow Burn

Until age 40 I mostly had sex with women,was married and then divorced at 33,and had occasional gay encounters usually anonymous ones. Considered myself bisexual with some gay leanings. I was attracted to older gay men primarily in terms of the gay desires but had only experienced oral giving and receiving and kissing.

When I turned 40 I noticed men more and more and women less. Started watching gay porn primarily no longer straight stuff. Went to gay bars here and there and utilized gay online apps. Had several gay affairs in which I explored my sexuality further including intercourse mainly receiving. I enjoyed them but not fully ready for a gay life. However I became aware I was now more gay than bi.

During the first part of Covid I never saw anyone for sex. The deeper desires were growing incrementally and I pictured myself loving a man more and more. For about 3 years I was celibate I guess preparing myself for a future chapter.

Then 2 years ago I went to a cafe one Sunday afternoon to have a coffee. There was one table that had an available chair with an older heavier man sitting there. The other 8 tables outside were all occupied. He saw me and waved me over. John was around 60 at the time very jovial and welcoming. He was chubbier than the men I was used to but I liked his look and personality. I was 50 and felt much like the younger man and we hit it off immediately. I ended up going home with him and into his bed. After I sucked his lovely cock he wanted to make love to me and I let him enjoying his heavier body on top of mine until he came inside me. We quickly became steady lovers and I began sleeping over a lot. I must've berm ready to meet the right person because we now live together as a couple. The next chapter has begun.