Moments Of Weakness With Someone Other Than My Wife

Do you ever feel like everything is closing in on you? That's the state I was in when I was getting close and I just left my dick in and came inside the woman I've been seeing. Except it happened 4 separate times in May, and now she is pregnant.

Guys who are cheating automatically say, "I love my wife", but in my case, it's the truth. Dawn and I have been together since high school. We basically grew up together. She is everything to me.

Janessa moved in to the new luxury apartment building in our neighborhood last summer. She was 22 and had just graduated from college...in fact from one of the women's liberal arts colleges in Pennsylvania, so you know she is intelligent.

I still have no idea what she saw in me, but the conversation flowed easily when I was pouring her wine at the Labor Day barbecue event that our neighborhood association puts on in the park down the street. My wife was right there and we both thought it was right to welcome this new, young neighbor, whose life was just getting started.

Then, she found me on social media and started sending slightly flirty messages. I met her for "coffee" on Columbus Day. (I had the day off, but my wife had to work.) She had her hand on my knee and then other places. I was defenseless. Here was a smart, beautiful, independent 22-year-old feeling my boner through my pants.

Dawn and I have always had a good sex life but Janessa's touch sent shockwaves through my body. I hadn't been touched by another woman since my senior year of high school.

We bought condoms at 7-11 and went up to her apartment to fuck. We used up the overpriced 3-pack so for my 4th time I was careful to wash my dick with soap and water to kill any sperm outside, and to piss so that any sperm left inside would be cleared out.

We loved the intimacy of that, our first skin-to-skin fuck. I pulled out way in advance, knowing I'd have little control with such a beautiful, young, and forbidden girl.

Many times since that day we tried to stop. I wanted to give her space to focus on her career, and on meeting men her own age, men who were not tied down and who could give her complete attention. She wanted to protect my wife and my marriage (really, that's how altruistic Janessa is). But it was no good. Whatever our intentions, we never lasted a week without texting and without my going back to her luxury apartment to make love.

One thing I love about Janessa is how expressive she is. Whether I'm pleasuring her with my fingers, my tongue, or my big dick, she moans eagerly and I know exactly what she likes and where she is on her journey toward orgasm. Dawn, by contrast, is quiet and reserved. After so many years together, I know how to get her off, and yet, I'm left wondering whether I'm satisfying her until the last moment, when her muscles tighten and she lets out a faint sigh.

Like I said, I love Dawn. Janessa just feels different. I started to fall in love with her in the long, cold month of January. Dawn had a business trip so I stayed with Janessa for a whole week. We both called in sick from work. When it's bitterly cold outside, why go out? Why even leave the bed? I kept her warm.

Three days from the end of our week Janessa had an idea. She ordered a day-after p¡ll from Target delivery. Those three days were pure bliss and freedom, with my ejaculating inside her 11 times.

She didn't want to get on regular birth control because she was worried about the effects on her body. I guess women who attend a women's college are hyper-aware of stuff like that. I respected her preference and always pulled out.

Until May, when Dawn had meetings with an out-of-town client every Wednesday, requiring her to be away from Tuesday afternoon through Thursday morning.

The first time my willpower ran out, Janessa didn't say anything. When I made love to her again an hour later, she didn't say anything, either. I told her I was getting close and she held me. I guess we didn't need any words. She and I both wanted this. We both wanted to make a baby.

What comes next is going to be very disruptive. Dawn is not going to believe I still love her, nor is she going to tolerate my raising a child with another, younger woman. So, I've decided to prepare a divorce, which is going to be amicable and generous from my side. My wife will be served with papers today. Janessa and I are making wedding plans for before the baby is due.

Please wish us luck, don't criticize. If we could control love, we would. I do want to hear from other couples who have been through this kind of affair. How did it turn out?

Thanks for taking time to read about our situation!