Realization

It was the mid 90's and I was in the early stages of my security career. I had an overnight position in an office tower doing my security checks and so forth. A security supervisor drove around checking in with us usually once per shift.

I did not have a girlfriend at the time but had slept with a couple women. At 25 I thought I was straight until I found a gay magazine one day and was aroused looking at naked men and their cocks. These gay desires began growing more and more within me andxI wondered if that was my true preference.

A new security supervisor dropped by one night. I smoked cigarettes at the time and we smoked and talked. Jeff said he was divorced and the job gave him lots of time to think at night.His hair was slicked back,he was taller than me and stockier basically a masculine regular sort of guy around 40. We hit it off right away. I started looking forward to seeing him when he checked in. In the next few weeks our conversations drifted more and more into personal matters. He said he was lonely and enjoyed my company. I could feel a building excitement and attraction I never felt before with a man.

One night he came by and things came to a head. We were talking near my security desk. We were alone of course at 4 in the morning. Jeff suggested we go into the office area out if sight of the street. Once we got there he told me how handsome I was. Before I could answer he leaned over and kissed me. He must've sensed my attraction to him and I responded in kind. There we were 2 men in security uniforms necking like teenagers. As we kissed deeply Jeff fondled my growing bulge. He was soon on his knees with my cock in his mouth giving me pleasure like I had never really felt before. He finished me off with his blowjob and a mouthful of my seed. We talked after and I just knew this was the start of something big. He invited me to his home for the weekend to get more acquainted and I eagerly accepted. Bring an overnight bag he said seductively.

I drove to his place a couple days later my heart pounding with anticipation. We ended up in his bed most of the weekend. I sucked Jeff's delicious cut cock for the first time and was amazed how natural it felt in my mouth. He took my anal virginity with lots of lube and gentle probing. It hurt once he was in but he reassured me over time it would only be pleasurable and he was right. Even that first time I felt pleasure in his penetration of me mixed with the hurt. Our relationship quickly evolved.Every weekend was now spent with Jeff. The lovemaking became a need ,a craving and an expression of now being part of a couple. I moved in with him a year later.

Over time I got acclimated to being a gay man loving another man and living together. We met another gay couple who became close friends. Jack and Andy were my partner's age. Both men in their 40's Jack being lean and muscular while Andy was shorter and chubby. We played cards and drank,had dinner together. One weekend I discovered another aspect of gay life. There is an element of open sexuality and swinging with some gay couples. We talked about it and started exploring fooling around with them. I ended up having sex with Jack while my partner fucked Andy in the same bed. Instead of creating jealousy it just increased the closeness between us and added to our sexual pleasure. Weekends now included this new arrangement. I found the sex different with Jack. More insistent and sexual in a fun way. Less foreplay more just in and out until he blew his load in me. He could be playful with me. A quick kiss then he mounts me. I found when I had sex again with Jeff there was an even deeper pleasure with him as my pleasure with another man was like an additional part of things. Jeff and Andy had a similar thing going. The most interesting part was when I started having sex with Andy. Both of us being basically bottoms we kissed a lot and orally pleasured each other without any intercourse. Jeff and Jack on the other hand fucked each other. Gradually these combinations in bed became the dominant pairings our swapping. Andy and I took 1 bedroom to kiss and suck each other while the other guys fucked in the main bedroom. We had sex this way for years until they moved away. Jeff and I don't swing anymore and prefer quiet lovemaking at home. We still have sex 2 or 3 x week.