A Steady Man

Throughout my life I mostly dated women and had one failed marriage. Intermittently between relationships but not always I had secret gay encounters with men. Usually I would see a guy once or maybe for a month or 2 and have exciting sex then break it off scared it would go further. The sex was mainly oral occasionally anal. I was open to kissing and full body contact. The gay urges would be temporarily satisfied but always built up again in my desires and fantasies. Loved especially pleasing a man and sucking his cock to completion.

I retired from my career and had lots of time to reflect on my sexuality. I noticed over the course of my life my gay desires have gotten ever deeper and men have become more and more attractive to me sexually no matter how old they are or what they look like. I can have sex with a wide variety of men in my head. Finally I decided to seek out a steady man to fully explore these desires regularly.

On a gay online dating site I placed an ad and received a good number of responses.One response stood out and I went to meet the man. He lives on a farm just outside my city and is several years younger than I but still in his 60's. We met at his place last summer. He is stocky and bearded mostly bald and masculine looking. We hit it off immediately and had sex in his bedroom. Lots of kissing and mutual oral. He has a sexy looking cut cock of average size,a bigger mushroom head and slight upward curve. He blew a big load in my mouth as I did in his. I slept over.

Since then I visit him every weekend sleeping over from Friday until Sunday night. We have intercourse with him topping me. For the first time in my life it feels like more than sex and like real true lovemaking,long slow and passionate. The desires linger and often I find myself driving there mid week as well for a loving evening. The attraction does not subside. Unlike in the past I find the mutual needs and desires between us only grow each time. We watch gay porn together and the sex gets intense and exploratory. We wear cockrings to stay harder. We are doing roleplays in which I am submissive to him and gradually he is turning me more and more into his pleasing bottom. He is very verbal and loves to instruct me. He takes charge of me in the bedroom.