After I Broke My Back I Had To Accept My New Reality

In my teens I had a near death experience, and I was in a coma for several weeks. When I came to I was alone, and not aware of what had happened. A nurse came in, an Angel nurse, one of those that you only see in the movies. She asked a few questions, my name, how old, that sort of stuff, and checked that I was all right and told me that I couldn't stand right now, so lay still as she went to get the doctor.

He was the bearer of bad news. I was paralyzed from the waist down. He showed me with a pin that I couldn't feel anything. He didn't bother to mention that I couldn't feel my dick. I had fallen off the back of veranda and broken my back, and had a head injury that they were concerned about. I was in the hospital for more than a month.

After I was home, a hospital bed was rented, and a wheelchair, my mother was my nurse. She sponge bathed me and this woman came to check on me and give me therapy for my legs. She is the one that told me I wouldn't be able to feel my dick. She grabbed it, 'see'. That was the cause of my depression.

The physical therapy bore fruit and after a year I had some feeling in my foot. I could walk with a brace, and soon without one. I was sent to this hospital for intense therapy and little by little I regained the ability to walk. But my dick was not responding. I could pee alright, but I could not raise an erection. My dick was useless. I was visited by this therapist who treated army guys who lost the use of their dick. You will need to compensate. He did not say it, but I heard it in my head, I had to be the girl. That's when I decided that from then on I was gay.

I was a good girl, I learned all the skills that girls learn, and I learned that giving oral to a man was something worth doing, and letting the man use me like a girl was better than nothing. I wanted to have my dick cut off, but that wasn't allowed, that was only for men who had their dicks blown off by a mine. I had a wimp of a dick, useless.

As I grew older and became more experienced at being the girl, I tucked my useless dick in my panties and was as affectionate as any girl around.

Thirty years later, right before the Covid stuff, I had a midnight erection. I couldn't cum, but the erection held and I could rub myself into one. What I wanted to do was fuck that nurse that woke me up so many years ago. I never did find her and thirty years of being the girl had pretty much shaped my life. Now I was a girl with a hardon. And my guy friend gave me a blowjob to see if I could cum.

I'm not there yet, maybe one day I will be able to fuck a real girl, but as of now I'm the one wearing the panties and showing my love.