So to know the sitution you have to know the past. I will try to keep this short. Anyways when I was 15 I had a steady boyfriend....that I had been with since middle school. But things were kind of dwindling between us and I didnt want to be tied down anymore. So we broke up. In the mean time I met this other boy and we all were friends. Well me and this other boy were very good friends and we hung out ALOT. and eventually ended up hooking up but never got into a relationship together because we liked out independance and freedom. I adored this boy and I know he adored me. And our friendship was like that for YEARS. And then right before I turned 18 he had a gf and I had a bf...and his gf got pregnant and shortly after I did to(by my bf at the time) Well him and his gf put their kid up for adoption and i grew up and raised my son by myself and me and him drifted apart. He was still in the party scene, and I wasnt. We would talk randomly and even hang out a bit for the next few years, and he confessed how much he loved me back then and how much i hurt him and i confessed the same. But we now knew we were coming from different worlds. Now...I'm 24 and he is finally starting to realize there is more to life than partying and I can't help but hope we will be together. I love him so much. I always have and always will. Its so painful but euphoric at the same time. How could I love someone so unconditionally for so many years when we were never together and I have been with other people i cared greatly about. But hes always been there in the back of my mind. Its torture. I try not to hope anymore...but the feeling wont stop and now that he is growing up too, its un shakable. Please god let this work out for me. I love him.