Meth & Childhood Trauma

My parents injected me with meth at the age of 11 when I had walked in on them shooting up and like a kid put a rock in my mouth thinking something sweet. They figured that meant I wanted to join.

Now, at 22, after being used to barter with gay dealers at 11, 12 and 13 and being shoved into chemsex that young - i think my life is fucked. I just drank a litre of some black guys piss straight from his dick and he's currently trying to rail me with his 10 inch soft rope that won't get hard after shooting up in his dick. Doesn't matter though, it still slides in and I can't feel much after being a fisting bottom at 16. Im only here for the 2.5 grams, this was payment.

I was trained to be a cute gay twink, I still look 17, but I dont even know if im gay. I was just useful if I was gay.

Yeah.

So.

Addiction ✅️
Disassociating ✅️
Oh and Im homeless now living in half of the burnt house my parents left. Its bad isn't it? I think this is the bottom of the hole now.

Also dude is soft as shit so not sure how long this charade will go for as he keeps claiming to be in it to breed me. I'm bored shitless with his dead snake I'm confessing shit I keep buried...