I Want To Be Cucked By My Widowed Mom.. With My Friends!

I'll be honest, I'm extremely ashamed of these thoughts, and it's taken some courage to make this confession, but I want to watch my mom, who has been widowed for four years engage in sexual activity - with my friends..

Now, I'm aware this could fit into a few different categories, so I apologise.

Some backstory - I'm an average guy. I have a good job, a girlfriend and a nice house. I've never seen or thought of my own mother in a sexual way, but the idea and thought of watching her with someone else does turn me on.

Unfortunately, we lost my father to lung cancer 4 years ago. She hasn't (as far as I'm aware), been with anybody since. She's a fairly conservative woman and keeps herself to herself.

These thoughts have only started to arise recently, and it's not something that I've fantasized about for a long time, but I want to watch my mother engage in sexual activity with friends of mine - some of whom I've known for 15-20 years.

It's so bad that if they asked, I'd strongly consider letting them sleep with my mother, as long as I could watch. I want to watch my own mother enjoy being sexual aroused and stimulated, whether that is through oral or vaginal intercourse. The taboo nature of the subject is also a turn-on.

My mom is 62, and my friends range from late 20's-mid 30's. There's a big age gap there, and I don't think she'd even entertain the idea, but I'd love to be able to somehow arrange for it to happen. It's messed up I know, but it is what it is..