Straight Female / 24
Destined To Serve My 'Lord On Earth', And Not Be The Bride Of Christ
There are some of you who might identify with me.
I went to work through a placement agency with a locally owned company. I accepted the job because I liked my supervisor. My passion was radio, and I was very involved with a radio outreach by my parish with recently arrived undocumented Latinos.
I am twenty four. I was going through a crisis faith and vacillated with joining a novitiate. Intentionally I had avoided any kind of sexual relationship. I should add I was born in Puerto Rico to a middle class family. My mother especially had raised me for the church.
At my job, I had to interact with a man who 'slapped' me on my behind. I jumped and called him an 'asshole'. I immediately became ashamed of my outburst and ran away crying. He had the habit of talking to me, and he told me that I was only allowed vaginal sex with him. If I could not control myself, then any sex with any other man was either oral or anal. My vagina was reserved for him.
These conversations, or better said, one sided lectures embarrassed me further. I lost my composure and told him I had not and did not engage in any sexual behavior, letting him know that I was a virgin.
I could pretend I had a virgin pregnancy, and ignore that he had gotten me pregnant. I was then embarrassed to show my face at my church, and had to stop my activities with the radio.
One day, heavy with pregnancy, I yelled at him. He took a wooden spoon off the kitchen table, held me down, and whacked me across my bare bottom. Nothing, not even his sexual behavior, was more humiliating. He held the spoon up and told me I was disrespectful to him and worse I was disobedient.
As I neared my due date I begged him to marry me, I did not want to be an unwed mother. He gave me the condition of obedience to him, and just as importantly, respecting him. Only after I agreed to his conditions did he marry me, and two weeks later my baby was born.
My mother and sister came to help me. How wonderful that I was a mother, and see, I was married. My journey with my earth bound Lord has begun, I am not worthy of serving My Lord Jesus as his bride.
I went to work through a placement agency with a locally owned company. I accepted the job because I liked my supervisor. My passion was radio, and I was very involved with a radio outreach by my parish with recently arrived undocumented Latinos.
I am twenty four. I was going through a crisis faith and vacillated with joining a novitiate. Intentionally I had avoided any kind of sexual relationship. I should add I was born in Puerto Rico to a middle class family. My mother especially had raised me for the church.
At my job, I had to interact with a man who 'slapped' me on my behind. I jumped and called him an 'asshole'. I immediately became ashamed of my outburst and ran away crying. He had the habit of talking to me, and he told me that I was only allowed vaginal sex with him. If I could not control myself, then any sex with any other man was either oral or anal. My vagina was reserved for him.
These conversations, or better said, one sided lectures embarrassed me further. I lost my composure and told him I had not and did not engage in any sexual behavior, letting him know that I was a virgin.
I could pretend I had a virgin pregnancy, and ignore that he had gotten me pregnant. I was then embarrassed to show my face at my church, and had to stop my activities with the radio.
One day, heavy with pregnancy, I yelled at him. He took a wooden spoon off the kitchen table, held me down, and whacked me across my bare bottom. Nothing, not even his sexual behavior, was more humiliating. He held the spoon up and told me I was disrespectful to him and worse I was disobedient.
As I neared my due date I begged him to marry me, I did not want to be an unwed mother. He gave me the condition of obedience to him, and just as importantly, respecting him. Only after I agreed to his conditions did he marry me, and two weeks later my baby was born.
My mother and sister came to help me. How wonderful that I was a mother, and see, I was married. My journey with my earth bound Lord has begun, I am not worthy of serving My Lord Jesus as his bride.
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