Slept With Mom

When I was a kid, I was SA by my mom often. I don’t condone this in any way but sometimes I think about it and get a little excited. I know how it sounds and I know people will probably thumb this down. I don’t know if this has happened to anyone else but if you can relate, cool. I often slept in the same bed as my mom since we grew up kinda poor and moved around a lot. I was always with mom, right beside her everywhere. My dad left before I could remember. I was a kid so I didn’t know it was wrong. I thought every kid did this with your mom. Sometimes in bed, she would touch me. Then ask to take off my shorts. And then get on top of her. But it was too small and barely did anything but I enjoyed it. She’d make me go down and eat her. Touch her. We’d both get naked and make love. I guess she was lonely and didn’t trust anyone else. I would crawl up and stand up and make her suck it a little.

As a kid I was horny every 5 mins and I started walking around with a tent in my shorts. She told me I couldn’t tell anyone a single word or they would take her away. Then if we were watching tv, I’d pull my shorts down and put her hand on it but sometimes she’d say no and tell me to get right. Eventually she told me we couldn’t do anything anymore because she was scared I’d talk.

I grew out of it once I was in my teens but she was really my first love. And no else knew anything. We’d be hanging out with family and only we knew that we did things.

I know she was wrong but I don’t hate her. It wasn’t traumatizing to me or anything. I had fun. I miss it sometimes. Anyways idk if anyone can relate.