Lust Over Females

No matter how much I try to forget her no matter that I’m married and she was married (no longer) I can’t forget about the time she wanted to be with me. I had my chances with her. Who would have known she would have turned out to be a swan . She seemed average at first cute with a nice body. I wanted to respect her in my car that night. We kissed and I reminded myself we had plenty of time to get it right. We were both married (both unhappy) she and I agreed to take our time and do it the right way separate from our then marriages. She wanted to be with me so bad. I couldn’t do it no matter how unhappy I was. I did it all for the kids living in a sexless marriage. She hated the sex with her husband. She divorced I didn’t. She became even prettier sexier worked out religiously. I couldn’t stop looking at her social media. She would capture Guys strangers attention with anything she wore any place she went. I imagined being with her sexually then it would turn out daily what was she doing who was the most luckiest guy getting to bang her. Three years after her divorce she’s still single but she’s not slowing down dating. There are now many rumors about how sexual she has become. I missed out on her and I think about her so much how often is she getting fucked . What’s her current count of one nighters. I am getting divorced no problem but I’m not going to lie even if we were to get together is she worth the many guys she’s been with? Did she just say she would wait for me honestly? Did I miss my call and my chances? Should I have just fucked her that night and got it off my back? Maybe i would have decided that night? Her friend made a comment to me about how she was crazy about me in the beginning. I ask myself how could she blossom into a woman so easily and sexy as she did?