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Women Only
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Straight Female / 43
Only Ever A Mistress, Never A Wife
I was always, and still am, impulsive. I got all in and get hurt because I over think and have unrealistic expectations. After college I got a job working for a large local company in out city. I met a guy through my cousin, but he was standoffish. It hurt, the rejection. At work I had made another mistake, I had discussed my personal feelings with the Vice President that I took the checks to for signature. He always reached out to touch me, and even if that bothered me, I guess I let him.
I told him about this guy.
It was a month later I had an envelope on my desk. In it was one picture. This guy was kissing with another guy in a car. I was devastated. I told this man at work and he told me that he had hired a detective to flesh out what was the deal with him. Not only is he gay, he was a male prostitute.
I reacted, I let this man hold me, hold me in a loving and very manly embrace, up against him, pressed hard against his chest, and his hand under my bottom while he kissed me and I melted, letting him push my pants down and engaging me in intercourse in his office. I not only had my first experience with him, but it resulted in a pregnancy.
I was out of my mind. I could not and would not entertain any thoughts about abortion. I wasn't raised that way. My mother told me I was old enough, 23, and I could have and take care of a baby. What I needed to do was get his financial support. Not only did I have that baby, he had me pregnant again three more times, and I have four children by him. I live with my mother. He gives me money, that's not a problem.
I'm 43 now so two of the children are already in college and another one goes next year. He still has sex with me, often, at my mother's house. He likes to hold me very tight and always seems to want to get his hand under my bottom to kiss me. I made up my mind, I would never again have sex other than on my matrimonial bed. But I'm the mistress, so it's not a matrimonial bed. But I do only have sex on the bed and I am strictly missionary, I don't do any of that other sex play. I still to this day, after twenty years, feel cheated out of marriage.
I told him about this guy.
It was a month later I had an envelope on my desk. In it was one picture. This guy was kissing with another guy in a car. I was devastated. I told this man at work and he told me that he had hired a detective to flesh out what was the deal with him. Not only is he gay, he was a male prostitute.
I reacted, I let this man hold me, hold me in a loving and very manly embrace, up against him, pressed hard against his chest, and his hand under my bottom while he kissed me and I melted, letting him push my pants down and engaging me in intercourse in his office. I not only had my first experience with him, but it resulted in a pregnancy.
I was out of my mind. I could not and would not entertain any thoughts about abortion. I wasn't raised that way. My mother told me I was old enough, 23, and I could have and take care of a baby. What I needed to do was get his financial support. Not only did I have that baby, he had me pregnant again three more times, and I have four children by him. I live with my mother. He gives me money, that's not a problem.
I'm 43 now so two of the children are already in college and another one goes next year. He still has sex with me, often, at my mother's house. He likes to hold me very tight and always seems to want to get his hand under my bottom to kiss me. I made up my mind, I would never again have sex other than on my matrimonial bed. But I'm the mistress, so it's not a matrimonial bed. But I do only have sex on the bed and I am strictly missionary, I don't do any of that other sex play. I still to this day, after twenty years, feel cheated out of marriage.
