Abuse Or Mentoring

Went on a camping trip at age sixteen, with older bro and his pals, to their great disgust at having to take me along...they were severely hormonal, and I was just starting on that course, and they thought it would be cool to tie me up in my sleeping-bag, so they wouldn't have to put up with my endless questions and "immature" behavior...from there it was an easy step to "wanking" a helpless victim, unable to resist their inexpert but enthusiastic efforts...which I found so enjoyable I pretended to hate it, knowing that bullies lost interest if you seem to be enjoying those efforts...then one said he'd heard it felt real good, if you had your cock sucked, so they unpicked some thread at seam, to give them access to my mouth, and away we went, for the entire three-day weekend, over and over, as they discovered how good that felt!

I found I rather liked it too, having to do that, and right there the shape of my future began to emerge, and is the main reason I still seek out such ''treatment' as a youngish adult, only now the sleeping-bag has been superseded by a rubber bondage-bag, which has become so addictive to me, that I seek out ANYONE willing to keep me in it, specially if I have to suck cock long and often, as the price for this, and being "wanked to insanity" in the process...fat nerds seem to be the most effective wankers, and receivers of endless oral services, starved as they are for any other kind of sex, usually...