I Wouldn't Classify Myself As Gay, But I Want A Guy To Blow Me.

So, just some backstory before I get into the details: I'm 33, in a relationship with my girlfriend (& happily have been for a year), I work an ordinary job and have a fairly normal life. Nothing too out of the ordinary whatsoever.

NEVER have I ever considered myself to be gay or even bisexual, and I don't find men attractive, but I've been having obtrusive thoughts for the last 2-3 months; I'm not sure why & there's no real reasoning behind why I'm feeling this way, but I just am.

I want to experiment with a guy blowing me. I find the idea and taboo nature of it all exciting, but not necessarily the act itself.

I'm keen to state that I've never actually been with a guy before. Nor do I intend or want to give anything sexual in return. I simply want a blowjob, and then I can see how I feel and react. At the end of the day, a blowjob is a blowjob, whether it's from a guy or a girl.

I was dating a girl back in college who had a gay best friend. Let's call him Jake (not his real name, of course). Nothing happened, nor did we ever really interact or do anything when we met, other than socialise on night's out etc. We've been friends on social media for years now, but never really followed up or spoken.

I recently messaged him and we started talking. I told him about my fetish and he said he'd happily do the deed for me if I wanted him too. I never said yes or no. I've just left it open and up in the air for the last 2 or so months.

I'm strongly considering arranging to meet him and see what happens. Like I said, I don't find men attractive, but I've heard they give great blowjob's. It isn't necessarily the person that I like, but the act itself. Should I go ahead and follow up with him?

Like I said, I don't intend to give anything in return. But I'm torn about the whole situation.