I Never Planned Or Expected To Be Here Like This

It's never one decision, it's always earlier decisions, with the last one that breaks the camel's back. My early decisions include student loans, credit card debt, a car I couldn't afford. Then the 'wrong' decision, I cosigned a loan with a friend for a business she had no idea how to run. I mean the balls to say no.

The business failed, she declared bankruptcy, I couldn't deliver, I was forced into bankruptcy. I lost everything, I was out on the street. That's why he offered me a place to stay, until I could get back on my feet. The days and weeks and months went by. As long as I was running the house, I could stay. One day he was insistent on me giving him sex, which I did. Overnight, I went from maid to wife. His insistent on sex scared me into believing I was going to get pregnant.

That's why I got married, so here I am, married and pregnant. Still have my old job of running the house. My husband is working out my student debt, that never goes away. My other debts consolidated into one loan, for a percent of the whole amount. My husband pays that debt as well. The IRS is also negotiated, my former partner hadn't filed payroll or income taxes.

I know I owe him, more than I can repay.